heavy heart.

My heart is heavy tonight. I have been thinking a lot about my precious friend in Honduras, Maryuri. I have written about her before. She is a fourteen year old little girl growing into a beautiful young woman. She lives in Casitas Adolecentes with 125 + other teenage girls. Her story is in an earlier post... I pray for her daily and think of her often. She has especially been on my heart and mind the last few weeks. Buckner has a Transitional home that girls from Casitas can be transferred to if they show good behavior and growth at Casitas. These are also girls who have no other chance of getting out of Casitas. My precious friend who works with Buckner let me know that Maryuri was being considered for the Transitional home. Being moved to the Transitional home is not a light process. A quick recap of Maryuri's story: her father left when she was young, her mother abandoned her and left her with an aunt and her aunt brought her to Casitas to leave her. Maryuri is wise beyond her years. She thinks about things a lot, sometimes too much. She analyzes everything. She is so hopeful and has a joy beyond comprehension. Bovi shared with me that Maryuri was not sure about moving to the Transitional home. I think that she is clinging to some glimmer of hope that her mother will come for her and if she moves to the home that hope may disappear. It is so hard for me to be here while she is going through this. I feel like if I were there we could talk all of this out. I know her. I know how she thinks. Tomorrow Bovi and his sister Grisselle (I love them dearly) are spending the day at Casitas. They both have a letter from me to give to Maryuri. A letter is the best that I can do and it kills me. I long so badly to hold her in my arms and speak truth to her while giving her love but I cannot. So I have to be okay with my letter. I selfishly want for her to say yes right away, to move to the Transitional home where she will be loved by 7 other girls around her age and be discipled and loved and learn things. I, as hard as it is, am clinging to the truth that God is sovereign. He knows exactly what Maryuri needs. My desire is for Him to be glorified. So... my prayer for Maryuri is this, that she would cling to the cross, that she would taste God's word and see the person of Jesus Christ through it, that the Word of God would be her joy and her dwelling place, that she will seek earnestly His face and that God would give her a discerning spirit. I pray that she clings to the truth He reveals to us in His word- that the Father on high in his grace and sovereign initiative has sought her, that Jesus has provided for our salvation in His death. I pray that I would be reminded of all of this as well. That I would cling to his promises that He will sustain, that He loves us and He does nothing foolish, that His plan is PERFECT. I pray for His will to be done. 


"Because he holds fast to me in love, I will deliver him; I will protect him, because he knows my name. When he calls to me, I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble; I will rescue him and honor him. With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation." -Psalm 91:14-16


"Por cuanto ha puesto su amor en mí -dice el Señor-, yo lo libraré; lo pondré en alto, por cuanto ha conocido mi Nombre. 'Me invocará y yo le responderé. Con él estaré en la angustia, lo libraré y lo glorificaré.' 'Lo saciaré de larga vida, yo le mostraré mi salvación'" -Salmo 91:14-16